Pretty

What makes you feel pretty? What makes you feel like you can walk with your head held high? I did not wear makeup for 2 weeks seriously... 2 weeks! Yesterday as I was getting ready for church it was like I was looking at someone else in the mirror I applied layer by layer. Then finally I could see the person I am comfortable looking at in the mirror. But why have I let this thing over take me as a person and define who I am? I have yet to figure this out. There are those woman that are confident without makeup on and feel "free" or whatever. I feel like a monster and seriously do not even like looking at myself in the mirror. I do not have great skin as it is but I like to pretend that I do. I am stuck somewhere in between teenage acne meets rosacea. Anyway reguardless of how ugly I feel without it I know the real person is on the inside. How does that real person come out if they feel insecure on the outside? Is this even possible? Do you ever feel crushed by those you love the most and it makes you feel even more ugly? I think if we are surrounded by those who love us for who we are this is the real ticket to being able to find that person on the inside regaurdless of the outside. Ok enough of the depressing blabbing... it just made me think yesterday as I applied makeup.